Do I don't? (incomplete)

Do I doubt without knowing it?
Realizing things
but too scared to be showing it?
Watch it blow up in my face
It might even prevent me from
completing this race
The truth that I evade &
the lies that I chase
Silence understands me
better than the words from my face.
And I'll face these problems
cause I have the Spirit to solve them
I don't understand what I'm thinking about
So I'll ponder it more
Hopefully I'll find something worth looking for more.